For those who want to know...

I did get my results... I passed everything except Hebrew (again!)... but hopefully will get a supp and will not make the same lazy mistake next time.... Hebrew will be conquered!!!

Comatose

This is how I feel at the moment. I am tired and starting to get sick :(

But life in general is looking much better... I have made a lot of helpful decisions in the last week I think. It was the week for reflecting and being proactive. I'll see how long these things last.

I have also had so much fun entertaining people lately. It is a blessing to have such a lovely house to be able to do that. I have realised how much I enjoy having people over, preparing food for them and being able to be hospitable. It is a great blessing to be able to be in one place for such a long time and a place that allows me to be able to entertain. If you would like to come over at some point and eat some food, drink some wine and hang out with me, feel free to let me know :)

But for now I think it is time for me to have some dinner and pass out just like this cat ;)

Hectic!!

Life in the last couple of weeks have been crazy. I have been loving working at Glassons and again hanging out with my cousin. She is such a blessing to have around and I know it has been good for her to have me around too. It is nice to feel appreciated. She says that I am her God-send in the shop and I feel much the same about this job. It is a God-send for me at this point.

But I have had so much stuff on too. Last weekend was mental. Between working 5 days last week and anticipating the 5 I would work this week in the shop I still had to lead and 8.30am Prayerbook service at Church, organise craft and have my minimites class (21 2-4y/o's), give a talk at youth group, organise a NYE Party and all of that was on one day!!

With the stress of possibly not getting everything I need to do done I got a headache on Sat that is still visiting me. I took Monday off work and just read a book, hung out by the pool and slept.

As for me... In general I am doing heaps better than I could have ever anticipated... still get sad... I wish things could have been different... but life goes on...

Momentary blackout for the homeless

Yes I am once again homeless for 3 months that is why I have been in a bit of a blackout and haven't blogged much... but now I have landed in a great house for over a month... 4 bedrooms, 4 levels, a pool, a plasma screen TV... really, does life get any better than this? ;)

Not only that but I started my job with my cousin at Glassons in Chatswood. It is fun to be hanging out with her more (she is so full of life and energy - I love her), and to be busy selling clothes again, earning money and having a life that is quite separate from college - ahhh so nice.

I have been in this house only 4 nights and have already had Tan and Lis sleep over, a sleep over Christmas party with the girls in my homegroup, and Wed night will be a Survivor party. Wow, I love having a house to entertain in. It is so much fun.

I also got to spend a night at Wagstaffe with the Party Boulevard crew... gee I miss you guys!! They are so much fun and the great thing is, they accept me as I am. They love me whether I'm happy or sad. It was great to be back hanging out with the old crowd again - ahhh a place to belong.

Refiner's Fire...

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose" Rom 8:28.

This has been what I have been holding onto so tightly lately. Even in the hard times... particularly in the hard times this promise is true. It is often really hard to trust this promise when things are difficult. About 4 years ago I prayed that God would break me and make me into the person he wanted me to be, but that he would wrap his arms around me as he does it. [WARNING: this is a dangerous prayer to pray so don't pray it if you don't mean it!] If there is one thing I have learnt over these last 4 years is that it is through these hard times that God is actually doing his best work. He is refining us and making us more like Jesus. Our faith is like gold that needs to be refined and purified but this only occurs as it is put into the fire and the impurities are melted away.

Thank you Lord for these hard times... Thank you that it means I am being made more and more into the likeness of your Son... Thank you that this is ultimately your good purpose for my life... Thank you through the hard times your promises are true and we can trust you!!